Startled awake at the sound of a little hand knocking on her bedroom door, I stumble out of bed to find the light on and my bright-eyed daughter staring up at me. She shows me her bed. It’s wet. We’re potty training, so it’s to be expected. As we begin to pull off the sheets I realize that I hadn’t replaced the full protective sheet so her mattress is wet. No more sleeping in this bed tonight.
I glance at the clock as I change her diaper and figure out a new sleeping arrangement. 2:03am. Goodness, it’s too early to be thinking and making decisions…
I get her situated on her old crib mattress in the master bedroom, assuming that she will sleep fine since she is right next to our bed. My spirited two-year-old has other plans. After several songs, back scratches and pleading, Daddy gets up to take over because Mommy’s getting frustrated and impatient. Two hours later, she’s asleep. Finally…
Less than 2 hours later, I’m awoken by her coughing. And then she is awake–for the day. Really?!?
Yet again I drag my prego self out of the bed to begrudgingly follow my energetic little girl, warm up blueberry muffins for breakfast and kiss my husband goodbye before he heads out the door for another long day at work. As my toddler settles in to watch Daniel Tiger while I attempt to finish waking up, I settle onto the couch to check my email.
That’s when I saw it… It was in an email from Lisa-Jo. I get one every week, but this one had a word that changed my morning.
It pricks my heart and convicts me of my sinful thoughts toward my sometimes difficult responsibilities as a mother. Oh, how many opportunities I missed to display an attitude of worship toward God and heart of serving toward my daughter in the moments of the early morning! I turn to Scripture to find encouragement.
I appeal to you therefore, by the mercies of God, to present your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and acceptable to God, which is your spiritual worship. Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect. For by the grace given to me I say to everyone among you not to think of himself more highly than he ought to think, but to think with sober judgment, each according to the measure of faith that God has assigned. –Romans 12:1-3
The lesson isn’t new. The verse is familiar. But I need the reminder often, because I’m still growing and in constant need of the marvelous grace, mercy and love of God that is new every morning. I prayerfully make the decision to change my attitude and view my role of motherhood as the blessing that it is–an opportunity to offer a sacrifice of worship to our Creator by selflessly serving my children with a joyful heart. Because this is what I am slowly learning… We learn to worship the Lord in the nitty-gritty of everyday life, in the exhausting moments of motherhood and the trying times of toddler tantrums. We learn to worship when we realize that we can’t to anything without leaning on the everlasting arms of the One who is mighty to save.
So, while snuggling with my blueberry-stained babe, I pound of these words–baring the ugliness of my heart–to help me remember, to keep me humble, and hopefully encourage you. Because I’m not the only mama that struggles with this, right? Please tell me I’m not!
How are you striving to worship today?